tisdag 1 juni 2010

I am hungry

En novell skriven för vampyrlajvet Kindred Society i Göteborg.

I am Hungry

They left the black car a few blocks back. The Spanish woman’s boot heels clicked quickly against the pavement. Her hair done so tightly the night wind doesn’t even make a single hair move. Not far behind, almost like a silent shadow, her unlikely companion weaves through the night. This one moves on both feet and hands, alternating between walking and almost running on all fours. She moves close to walls, stays out from under the electrical street lights.
Esmeralda leads them to a nondescript building.
-Here it is.
 Esmeralda stands tall. She doesn’t waiver. There is anger burning in her aura, and she lets Talulah peak through and hear her inner voice. He said I have a hole in my heart.
-Yes.
The door to the building isn’t even locked. Off course it isn’t, that would hinder people coming and going. Customers going in and out.
-         -  I told him if he didn’t stop I’d come back.
-          - Yes.
-        -   He hasn’t stopped.
-          - No.

I am hungry, and you will be something for me to eat. I am thirsty and you will be something for me to drink.
I am a stranger. And you will invite me in.
Esmeralda has her price, the owner of this parlor and the people within it, and Talulah will allow them to have words now. This one isn’t hers, he belong to her companion now. It was a done deal. Their strong voices fall away behind Jezebel as she leaves them for the incense filled, slightly reddish darkness of the other rooms deeper inside the apartment.
The Lord has sent me in all of his divine wisdom. It will be lovely. I promise it will be lovely. Believe in me.
The curve of Jezebels back. Her pathetic yet powerful silhouette fills the door frame with a halo created by the light from the living room. Talulah discards her dignity at the door, where it piles up. Then Jezebels long dark hair gets swept out of her face by knowledgeable hands. Another anonymous pre-dawn of absolute flesh. Cold, white skin getting warmed by the touch of many hands, receiving her. The charm of Jezebels predator vampire mind. Jezebels alabaster skin, the blue eyes, their intensity. Pale lips part, a bitter smile as fangs protrude. Talulah drinks with gratefulness. To forget, to let her pain subside. Embraced by human arms. They try to not let their fear and apprehensiveness show, professionally smiling faces surround her. But Talulah can see it in their souls. Pain and fear. Loss. Self hatred. For a moment she can make it all go away, drowned out by bliss. The Kiss.
The first one takes the edge of the world. Sweetness mingles in the salty iron taste of blood. The second one, smelling of perfume and incense, douses the fire in her belly. She sip another swig, letting her head tilt backwards and lets the dark deed fill her. Stranger pours into her. Jezebel has already peel back what usually binds her, what make her strong. And it's ok, mostly. The third one is tense but abandons herself into Jezebels hands. Her soft blond hair tickles Jezebels cheek.
Tickles. It was long ago, that I felt such a soft touch
Something thugs at her blood-soaked mind. The sound of boots hitting soft flesh. Of wide hands slapping skin. Meaning the hitting has begun. Esmeralda lost her temper in spite of thinking of her father’s cautioning words. But the current swipes Talulah under again. Soft hands. Lacquered nails. Make up over bruised skin. Hip, hand, thigh, back, calf, arm, ass, cheek, teeth, knee, heel, neck, elbow, ear, tongue, shoulder. Want to lick it up? Quiz over every curve we’ve got. A tint of heroin. Some cocaine. Amphetamine. A lot of alcohol. A tightening in her chest. A screaming voice from within. Get out. It's got to be enough. It's got to be enough.
It’s with a gigantic feat of will that Talulah untangles herself from embracing limbs. Every ounce of fear erased they are unwilling to let her go. But they are weak now and really can’t hold her back for long. Where is my coat? Where are my gloves, my dress, my pants? It has got to be 5 am. She once more sheets herself in armor and exits into the living room.
The neatly dressed Esmeralda sits on a dining table chair with her back to the hallway door, facing the front door. Her back is tense and Talulah can see the disgust in her aura. The man is on the floor, against a corner that he most likely backed into. Big bruises are forming on his forehead and he’s got a split lip. But there is no more blood than that and he is still breathing albeit unconscious. All the lights are turned off.
-Talulah? Esmeralda states into the void of the room.
-Yes.
Esmeralda seems more relaxed, shoulders sinking from their tensed and angered pose.
-          -Will we come back here?
-          -Yes. But at the end of nights like this. It's got to be enough.


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söndag 30 maj 2010

Mors dag

Det är mors dag idag, men som Amanda Brihed skriver, inte för alla. Idag tvingas alla svenska personer som byter kön även till sterilisering. De får inte heller lov att spara könsceller, vare sig frusen sperma eller frusna ägg.

En verkligen omständighet.
En omständighet som jag anser vara fel. Jag kan hoppas på en föreslagen lagändring, men även om den föreslagna förändingen är bättre, är frågan om den heller egentligen är acceptabel.

Amanda Briheds bloggpost
http://brihed.blogspot.com/2010/05/mors-dag-men-inte-for-alla.html

Wikipedia:

Könsbyten regleras av lagen (1972:119) om fastställande av könstillhörighet i vissa fall, som omfattar både transsexuella och intersexuella. Lagen kräver att den som på grund av transsexualism ansöker om könsbyte ska vara:

  • Ogift (dvs enligt praxis ogift, änka/änkling, skild eller inte ingått partnerskap)
  • Svensk medborgare
  • Minst arton år
  • Steril

för att kunna ges tillstånd till ny juridisk könstillhörighet och könskorrigerande kirurgiska ingrepp.

Något juridiskt krav på könskorrigerande kirurgi, förutom sterilisering, finns inte för någon av grupperna. Det nuvarande kravet på sterilitet har av Socialstyrelsens Rättsliga Råd, länsrätten och kammarrätten tolkats som ett krav på att inte heller reproduktionsdugliga nedfrysta könsceller från patienten får finnas.
Socialstyrelsens Rättsliga Råds beslut kan överklagas som vanliga förvaltningsärenden, till länsrätten och sedan kammarrätten.
Cirka 60 personer ges årligen nytt juridiskt kön i Sverige, fördelat på 1/3 som får ett manligt juridiskt kön och 2/3 som får ett juridiskt kön som kvinna

Only Rapists can stop Rape

Efter att ha letat efter orginalkällan till följande text och misslyckats, väljer jag ändå att posta texten här på bloggen också.

DON'T RAPE HER: "A lot has been said about how to prevent rape. Women should learn self-defense. Women should lock themselves in their houses after dark. Women shouldn't have long hair and women shouldn't wear short skirts. Women shouldn't leave drinks unattended. Fuck, they shouldn't dare to get drunk at all. Instead of that bullshit, how about:

If a woman is drunk, don't rape her.
If a woman is walking alone at night, don't rape her.
If a women is drugged and unconscious, don't rape her.
If a woman is wearing a short skirt, don't rape her.
If a woman is jogging in a park at 5 am, don't rape her.
If a woman looks like your ex-girlfriend you're still hung up on, don't rape her.
If a woman is asleep in her bed, don't rape her.
If a woman is asleep in your bed, don't rape her.
If a woman is doing her laundry, don't rape her.
If a woman is in a coma, don't rape her.
If a woman changes her mind in the middle of or about a particular activity, don't rape her.
If a woman has repeatedly refused a certain activity, don't rape her.

If a woman is not yet a woman, but a child, don't rape her.
If your girlfriend or wife is not in the mood, don't rape her.
If your step-daughter is watching tv, don't rape her.
If you break into a house and find a woman there, don't rape her.
If your friend thinks it's okay to rape someone, tell him it's not, and that he's not your friend.

If your 'friend' tells you he raped someone, report him to the police.
If your frat-brother or another guy at the party tells you there's an unconscious woman upstairs and It's your turn, don't rape her, call the police and tell the guy he's a rapist.

Tell your sons, fathers, brothers, uncles, god-sons, nephews, grandsons, sons of friends it's not okay to rape someone.

Don't tell your women friends how to be safe and avoid rape.
Don't imply that she could have avoided it if she'd only done/not done x.
Don't imply that it's in any way her fault.
Don't let silence imply agreement when someone tells you he 'got some' with the drunk girl.
Don't perpetuate a culture that tells you that you have no control over or responsibility for your actions. You can, too, help yourself.

If you agree, repost it. It's that important.

lördag 29 maj 2010

Bloggkartan - testinlägg

Jag har placerat min blogg i Biskopsgården på bloggkartan.se!

Det är en geografisk bloggportal.

Fläskkarre


Kvällsmat: Fläskkarre från Lidl för 49 kr kg. Champinjoner och gul lök stek i willys flytande margarin. Klyftpotatisen kokades först i 4 minuter innan den kördes i ugnen på 250 grader i en smord form. Gjorde en skysås av stekfettet från båda stekpannorna och redde den enbart med vetemjöl. Grönsaker: Broccoli, burkmajs, tomat och salladsblad.

Har en stor bit kvar av fläskarren som ligger och marinerar i kylen nu i salt, peppar, rapsolja, soja, ingefära och vitlök. Imorgon blir det en lättare picknick, frågan är om jag kan göra något av köttbiten tills dess. I övriga nyheter är jag mest snuvig.
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fredag 14 maj 2010

Mjölkfritt dag 11

Det borde i alla fall vara dag elva. Drack bara kaffe till frukost, drack därmed upp den sista havremjölken och måste köpa ny. Som jag sa till min sambo "jag känner mig som en vegan, som äter kött" Jag tror att han kanske himlade lite med ögonen åt det.
Till lunch blev det isbergsallad, romanesco blandning som vi köpt fryst på Hemköp, handskalade räkor som vi köpt frysta på LIDL. Gjorde dressing på majonäs, vatten, riven vitlök, dill, nymalen svartpeppar och lite salt. Kompeltterade med två rostmackor med Carlshamns mjölkfria margarin på. Det är hittils godare än Becel.

När dottern vaknat från sin tupplur är planen att njuta av vädret på en längre promenad till 4H gården och kalasa på kaffe och mjölkfria, hembakta bullar.

Kaffet gott och bullarna avnjutna. Sen glömde jag att äta och sitter nu med några mackor sambon gjort till mig innan han stack iväg på kvällens vampyrlajv, det sista reguljära lajvet för säsongen. Jag måste medge att jag är ganska nyfiken på vad det är som kommer att hända ikväll.

tisdag 11 maj 2010

Mjölkfritt dag 8

Sov större delen av dagen eftersom jag var sjuk, men fick stekt potatis, isterband, falukorv och stekfläsk till frukost. Rester och en snäll sambo.
Senare på dagen åt jag vitt ris och chili con carne som blivit över från någon lunch.
Sambon stod även för kvällsmaten, äggnudlar, stekt kyckling, wokade grönsaker samt äkta soja och flytande mjölkfritt margarin.

Vi tog oss till en affären som hade bra allergiutbud så jag fick hem lite mer havreglass av Oatly. Trodde ett tag att jag var helt återställd, men nu är jag trött och sliten igen och kanske ska trösta halsen med just den glassen.