måndag 20 december 2004


I'm writing a paper for school.
Tomorrow I will work 8AM to 3PM and then go to Café Talang. Afterwards I'll have dinner with my friend Addiz and give her her christmas gift. I also have to remember to call my little brother Victor on his birthday. Wednesday I write once more. This thursday I'll help out at the theme-park Liseberg and then we leave for Arvika to celebrate christmas.

onsdag 21 juli 2004

physical pain

I wanted to get in the car with Stefan K today and drive up to the woods we use for our fantasy live action rolplaying. But I'm staying at home because my knee is really hurting. It started feeling funny when I want to bed a three o clock in the morning. Then the pain set it. I couldn't fall asleep because of it. I took a painkiller. It did not work for quite some time.
Woke up at nine and gave Stefan K a call about me not showing up. He told me to get better soon.
Then I called my boyfriend to get some support. Then I was hungry and had a toast with swedish caviar on it. Now I'm having an egg.
Haven't really slept, except for a few hours.
Guess I'm going back to playing City of Heroes now.

lördag 29 maj 2004


I'm going to Västerås for the weekend with Mikael Lestander. It's "The Interests for L.A.R.P" that are going to have a meeting and I'm so tired that I might sleep in the car all the way up. *groan*
It was the last evening of the Vampire L.A.R.P yesterday. Yes, I'm up and walking around on four hours of sleep. The gamemasters got really happy for their gifts, even if Per got a Cactus.

torsdag 18 mars 2004


I have about 700 words eft before I am done with my case studie and I'm not even sure if the other 3300 are any good!

söndag 7 mars 2004


My bank account is drained. All I can do now is wait for the money I was supposed to get for paying for the train-tickets to Stockholm. I really really hope I get them soon. Sure, my boyfriend will never let me go hungry, but to have money of my own is important to me.

tisdag 17 februari 2004


Sara is a very rock ass friend of mine. We were roomies 2002-2003 and then she moved to Skåne and I moved in with my boyfriend. The good news is that I am going too see her today and both me and my boyfriend are soo looking forward to it. :D

Return to me!

måndag 16 februari 2004

summer job

Looking for for a job this summer. Applied for one on the ferries that go between Gothenburg and Copenhagen.I should also call my last job, at the children's home, but I missed my chance today. I'll have to do it tomorrow though

måndag 9 februari 2004


Somewhere in this apartement complex someone is playing the flute. Every night I hear one of my neighbours snoring. I am pretty sure it's the same man that goes peeing about midnight, every night. The house is alive, always murmuring with human sounds. This does not make me feel annoyed, it makes me feel safe.

onsdag 4 februari 2004

electric sweaters

music: Wolfsheim - Leave no deed undone

Cool. The winamp browser just gave me information about wolfsheim I didn't know. Anyhow, it's laundry day. This means getting down to the little house in the yard and use up lots and lots of fabric softener. However, we are out of it and have to get it expensively from the corner-shop. My father never used it when I was a kid so now I absolutely have to use it. No more elctric sweaters...ever.

måndag 2 februari 2004

mind power

I've got so much to do and the majority of it takes mind power. Thinking about the world I created for my LARP and how I will get everything ready in time for it. At least most of the texts are written. If you want to check it out, go to lrs.sverok.net/speglingar.

onsdag 28 januari 2004


I just got up. Didn't have any lectures at all today. This weekend I didn't get to sleep in. On saturday I had to meet up with Addiz for a Lunch-date, she's going to the states very soon and I'm going to miss her. On sunday, Peter S wanted me to come over early for our role-playing game session because I had no character ready. I made a rat shaman gnome by the street name of Junk. Did I mention that we're playing Shadowrun? After a while Peter told we were turning one of our players out and wondered if I knew any girls who were interested in joining, I said I couldn't think of any girls, but that I knew that my Live in S.O, Jonny was interested. So we called home and he came over. From now on sundays will be much more fun.

On monday we had another seminar, on tuesday a lesson about decisionmaking.

And now here I am. With about 50 pages + to read.
Wish me luck.

torsdag 22 januari 2004

special friend

I just woke up. No lectures today, so I don't have to go to Borås at all. Instead I'm going to Café Talang to do some homework and meet my friends. Especially one special friend, who rarely comes to visit us.
I just had breakfast, two sandwiches with some meat on, and Coca Cola. Now I hawe to jump into the shower and get ready.

onsdag 21 januari 2004

Went well

It all went like a charm. I was eloquent, almost too eager to speak and we all had a long discussion about post-structuralism.

Outside, the cold is really getting to me, -10 Celsius. Since I moved into the big cities I've become so aware of how I look that I don't put on enough to fight of the chills. By that I don't mean that I'm half-nekkid. It's just that I wont put on that extra, big, warm cardigan. Every day I fool myself that that chic red coat I got from Zaras in London will keep the cold at bay, if not with it's thickness, then with it's bright color.

A friend of mine has left her boyfriend and everything about Linda K is coming back too me. She was my friend through the later part of High School, my first best friend. We met each other when she was separating from her current Live-in S.O. When I was going to College she sent me an E-mail from Stockholm, she wasn't coming back.

tisdag 20 januari 2004


Today I've had one lecture and after that I and Lena copied a whole book for Organizational studies. It took about two hours! Then we did our homework and I took the 15.43 train back to Gothenburg. Then I could meet my Vampire LARP-friends at our usual Café, the Café Talang (menas Talent). I also went with some of them to a local bar so that we could design the character for me and my cotierie's new ghoul. It was nice, but now I smell of yucky cigarette smoke.
I used to be a smoker, but I quit when I got together with my live in S.O, Jonny, and now I've also adapted to thinking of tobacco as smelly and bad.

I go to organizational studies at the Library school of Borås, in my spare time I participate in Live Action Role-Play. I also like to play other games like settlers, munchkin and Chez Geek.

I like power

mood: contemplative
music: Rocky Horror Picture Show - I'm Going Home

People tell me that I like power. How do they know this? I do know that I despise being powerless. This does not mean that I need control, I see myself as a impulsive person who likes to try new things and leaving things to fate. Having recognised that truly nothing ever turns out as you expected and that to plan things to much will only instill anger and frustration.
Since I have a self-image of myself as incapable of seeing things through I overcompensate and do a LOT of different things. And every time somethings reaches conclusion and I am truly DONE with it I feel this inner joy, like I just proved something to myself and to the world.
Inside, there is this NEED to make my mark upon the world, and if not the world, then at least the neighbourhood.


Getting a degree in Library and Information Science
Building a small village with one of my LARP-groups
Playing a Toreador bon vivant in another LARP
Learning to be a better cook.
a vice chairman in one of the LARP-groups
in love with my boyfriend (hey, this is a big step for me)